Thursday, August 20, 2009

I'm not sure I can do this for another 11 years.

This post could also be titled:
  • Do you suppose I'll cry when I send her to school EVERY year?
  • 7:30 in the morning until 3:30 in the afternoon is a long time.
  • First grade = Lots of Firsts.
  • Will she find her classroom?
  • Will she eat her lunch?
  • She's not big enough to go to 1st grade. Her backpack is bigger than she is.
  • I hope she's not as nervous as I am.
  • Is it 3:30 YET?
  • No, I'm not homeschooling, but I've considered it.
Well, I was hoping to do this whole post just using bullets and cute little titles, but I'm tired and that's just not working. But I want/need to be done. So, I'm going to leave what I've got and just get to the point.The gist of it is, sending Sirri to school today was really hard for me. I worried about her all day. All day. I could list all the things I worried and fretted about but that list would be long and would probably go unfinished as well. (Plus, anyone who has ever sent a child off to school knows what I'm talking about.) I just worried.

3:42 slowly rolled around and the bus finally pulled in and guess what? It wasn't the happy ending I was looking for. I took one look at Sirri and new something was wrong. Sirri took one look at me and she was in tears. Full on alligator tears. And my heart broke. I hugged her shaking little body and could instantly feel the raging fever. Poor Sirri had spent her first day at school sick. Not to mention that she had insult added to injury when someone was mean to her on the bus. Grrrr. I really hate the bus.

I just wish all my worrying would have been in vain.

So, now I'm going to go to bed and try to sleep even though I know I'll worry about whether I should send her to school tomorrow and hope and pray that her second day can be better than her first.


Rochelleht said...

Oh, that's just terrible!! I'm so sorry she was sick. Poor baby. I am dying because my baby is going to first this year and that leaves me NO ONE! UGH! It really kills me.

Lauren in GA said...

Oh, no.

The good news is she has you. She held it together and then was able to let it all out once she made it to your arms. That is what a mom's arms are for. Now that I am a mom I realize that I took for granted having a mom to vent to and weep with.

I am so sorry she had a bad first day, though.

I love the pictures. Especially the one of her looking down the road.

Melissa said...

Lisa Marie~ your little one is so cute! I'm sorry to hear that her first day wasn't the best and that she was sick. Hopefully she gets feeling better. Just remember that if she has a good teacher she will be taken care of at school. I'm glad she had you to cry to when she got home too.
Hope she had a better day today if she goes.

♥Shally said...

Oh no! Poor baby. I hope she is feeling better.

I still cry when Jax gets on the bus. Something about my kids getting bigger and me knowing I have no control over that makes me soooo sad!

Lauren Evans said...

Oh my goodness! That poor little sad girl, I hate to see other people cry and I can only imagine how hard it is to see your little girl cry. I am sure school will get better for her, the first day is always rough.

Ilene said...

I'm gearing up. My eldest is going to kindergarten. I am sure I will be bawling too.

It is just a matter of time before Sirri is ruling the bus.

Grandma W. said...

Oh Honey, I am so sorry she had a bad first day! I hope she was OK to go today too. She is going to be A-OK with it all because you just can't keep little Sirri down!!
Everything will be alright come Monday and you both will forget all about the bad first day! You just look so darned cute, Sirri!!
Papa and Grandma can't hardly believe our little great-granddaughter is in the first grade! You just get to feeling good, Sweetie, and everything will be OK!!
We love you!

robin said...

that is the WORST!

but sirri's a fighter (hello, she beat cancer!) it'll get better.

Laurel said...

oh, ugh!! That one hurts. Sirri will get better, and you know she is a fighter, so she's gonna be just fine (as soon as she's back to her old self.) And mamma, it does get easier, I promise you that. After a few good days, it will feel a hundred times better. Until then, hang tough!

Idaho Beagleys said...

AND what's amazing is....Sirri will remember 1st grade for all the awesome firsts and the 1st day of school will be the oh yeah moment of the year.

cindy bigelow said...

11 YEARS????? that's all there is left until she's 18 and thinks she can be an adult? considering she's already been around for 6 years and it has gone by so fast, 11 years just isn't long enough!

tell my baby girl i'm so sorry she was so sick. i hope the rest of the week was much better for her.

she's really stinkin' cute with that HUGE pink back pack.

i miss you guys.

Pam said...

I'm not old enough to have a granddaughter in 1st grade! Am I??
I'll bet she is the cutest little girl at school! And the dress is too cute! I love you Sirri Marie!
(The big pink backpack made me laugh too!)

Angela said...

I feel your pain. I was much more emotional this year than I was last year with Kindergarten (I'm thinking that had something to do with everything else that has gone on, but still). I didn't cry when I dropped her off, but I sure cried the night before. I just don't like the idea of sending them off to be influenced by other people all day. Luckily I go to church with her teacher, so I know she's in good hands, but I don't think I'll ever get used to this whole growing up thing.
Hopefully things have gotten better for Siri since her first day. If she's anything like you, she'll do fine.