As for tonight I am just feeling worn out. I was in the cafeteria a few minutes ago, ordering myself my 1000th grilled cheese sandwich. I stood against the wall waiting for it to cook and sheer exhaustion set in. I was not sure I could go one more minute. Of course, I did, and I will, but I am so ready for this to be done. I looked around the cafeteria at other parents who looked just as tired as me and felt so much sympathy for those who wil have to do this longer than I will. But even so, I just want to go home. I want to get our scan over with tomorrow. I need it to be okay and I need to see my kids and husband and remember what my life really feels like.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
This blog has been such a great outlet for me. (Though I apologize to those of you reading it. Knowing my every waking thought is probaby wearing.) It has been nice to have something to do besides read New Moon (ick.) or watch tv while Sirri is sleeping. It gives me a way to sort out my thoughts when there is no one hear to listen and I'm thankful to have a record of this. Hopefully, some day I will look back upon this experience as a fading memory.